You should not need to ask permission to be who you are.
It’s about control: who has it, who needs it, how does one get it.
I have a list of critical words:
#1 is NO: a statement of boundaries.
#2 is WHY: a statement of accountability.
# 3 is PERMISSION: a statement of control.
This concept of needing permission is more common in women than men who, for the most part, have an innate sense of entitlement. It results from the way their mothers nurtured them and from societal mores that continually reinforce that men have power. They are encouraged to be aggressive, forward-moving, and on top.
Women and men grow up with different expectations.
As history has shown, men have most often led the charge and women have been the followers.
Since “Rosie the Riveter” emerged in WWII, women have taken on increasingly larger roles in the workforce and in politics. There has been a shifting of power from the one who has it to the one who deserves it.
Sometimes it takes a role model to set change in motion.
Several years ago, Oprah went public about how she spends her Sundays, in her pajamas, relaxing and being a “couch potato.” That story reverberated through the sleepwear industry; sales skyrocketed.
Women were taking time for themselves to be self-nurturing without apology and taking care of themselves in ways they had only fantasized. Oprah, reaching millions of women within a one-hour program, was the catalyst.
Years ago, I read a book that has become a classic in women’s studies, Women Who Run with the Wolves. It describes us in our authentic state:
“Healthy wolves and healthy women share certain psychic characteristics: keen sensing, playful spirit, and a heightened capacity for devotion.
“Wolves and women are relational by nature, inquiring and possessed of great endurance and strength. They are deeply intuitive and intensely concerned with their young, their mate, and their pack. They are experienced in adapting to constantly changing circumstances, they are fiercely stalwart and very brave.”
Women are shaped and influenced by advertising, as well as the environment in which they grew up, and their genetic disposition.
The world of advertising and early childhood environments often control, through guilt and shame, women’s choices and how they make us feel about ourselves.
Anything that diverts our intrinsic drive away from what is natural to us diminishes our authenticity and self-worth.
The seeds of disconnect from one’s true self are planted when a child is an infant; how her needs are treated sets into motion what will then be considered her self-esteem.
This positive, strong sense of self or damaged sense of self will domino into adulthood and be reflected in the choices a woman makes.
An authentic sense of self will be mirrored in a confident woman.
Conversely, a damaged sense of self will be reflected in the kinds of choices a woman makes, often at the expense of her genuine self.
Women who need permission to get their own needs acknowledged come from a childhood of discarded instincts and suppression.
If we look at some of the factors that have a profound impact on how we move thru the world, we start with bonding between the mother and infant. Babies want three things: warmth, closeness, and acceptance.
Then layer in birth order, which speaks of power. Being a single child has different issues.
Then layer in the parent’s own issues like narcissism, and the stew gets hearty.
It puts an adult into a quandary of whose needs come first; my spouse’s or mine? My children’s or mine? My dog’s or mine?
Where are the boundaries that offer sanity and release from guilt and shame?
When will it be my turn to be seen and cherished for who and what I am?
My client Janet struggled with a mother who never allowed her to be herself. Janet had a gourmet food boutique, but her real passion was storytelling, not unlike Meryl Streep in Out of Africa.
When she started her coaching sessions with me, Janet had the disapproving voice of her mother in her head. She inherited from her mother the talent for imagery and emotion which was spellbinding.
Janet also wrote well. But she inherited from her mother the message: “Never brag about yourself.” So, Janet could not distinguish between sharing her accomplishments and bragging; they sounded the same to her.
She had written a screenplay, and shown it to her mother, whose response had been: “Yes dear, that is a lovely hobby.” Janet didn’t give herself permission to assert that her talent was not merely a hobby.
One of the many things Janet learned in our sessions was that the voice of her mother in her head was fear-based. It was not her voice. She had inherited her mother’s fears about being seen for who she really was.
You can let go and give yourself permission to experiment; share your accomplishments with total strangers, and see how no one laughs at you and that the world does not stop spinning.
Don’t rob Mary (authenticity) to pay Pam (fear).
Permission and money? Go back to the fundamentals: Who has the control to not buy that latte?
Who has the power to ask for a raise?
Who has the right to determine your self-worth?
Only you do.
And, if you need some support getting your finances in order, please reach out. I’m happy to schedule a consultation call to see how I can support you in reaching your goals.